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Mon, Jun. 26th, 2006, 08:57 pm
i went to the screening of larry clarks new film "wassup rockers"
. with live performances from all the punk bands from the film.
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it was kool. Wed, Mar. 1st, 2006, 11:47 pm
stoopid is me. ![]()
My band
THE PROGNOSIS: NEGATIVE
is playing at The Whiskey A go go on Sunset blvd. Wed. Dec. 28th 10pm
(tommorrow night)
world famous club, with the best in music.
come see us you lazy pieces of shit.
-tj Tue, Nov. 29th, 2005, 10:20 pm
uh oh,
my love is a whore.
.. fuck me.
.love me , and enjoy misery.
my touch is cold , to your living flesh.
.. i will bring you into my personal hell.\
i love you.
my love is a whore.
.., then i realized as the sharp pain returned that i was still being tortured.
... this bipolar rollercoaster ride as got to stop..
oh,,
....... and i love god.
.. it hurts a lot now.
more than ever before.
.. .a constant ouch...
it hurts more & more .
..................................................it may be safe to say, that i'm dead.
.....................................i remember a time, when "i wanted it" , is what i said.
..............................oh, but now. ?___
i want life so bad,
... that it is worth loosing it, to WANT something that much.
love,-..
.. . this day i recognize the demon that has had me under a spell.
. i'm trembling in suspense, has to wonder how it will end.
.. but, honor?
.. will it be there.,? that is what scares me=
. . im sorry
i don't know what i am.
. never really understand
i don't give a fuck today
. ideally in every way
suck the poison out
... the wound is throbbing. Sat, Jun. 25th, 2005, 11:25 pm
Tue, Jun. 14th, 2005, 06:35 pm
hey,
maybe Michael Jackson really is innocent.
..
......... the justice system has to be right., Mon, Jun. 6th, 2005, 05:53 pm
yeah, so,. i finally let all the legal stuff get in the way. i've been 3 years with no ID!!!! using fake names, and such. driving cars with fake D.L.'s,. getting paid, through false id. today I GOT MY REAL ID!!!!!!!!!! unreal, .. i never thought i would so good to finally just be "me".
Wed, May. 25th, 2005, 05:47 pm
Star Wars 3
well, it was alright,.. .. i thought Knowing the whole story wouldn't dull it any, ..... .. .......but,,. well, i think it did. .. nice watching the dark side take over still, though.
THis is the time i realize my curiousity for scientology isn't comfortable.
.i think i see it more "clearly" but not sure if it is going to be easy.
she is completely oblivious...
.. innocent is something that hasn't been in a while...
. i miss the warm comfort
the cold comes in...
.. again.
again,.
again..
.. until i snap.
..
. what is sometimes called "GOD" wants to push me pass the limits of what "is" Tue, May. 17th, 2005, 11:05 pm
VANITY
...
.. I want to get a 'normal' job.
movies, and tv has kept me in a fantasy land to large, for to long.
nothing is real,
... and no one is real.
well,. i had to pick up my girl from the police station,..
it seems someone on santa monica beach tried to rape her.
i fucking hate people
.... they boil my blood, until my rage needs to be grounded out through their skull.
of course.,
.. if i still had the meat locker, i would throw the guy in a freezer until his body was frozen solid, then chop him up without making a mess,.
cooking him,
..... and feeding the homeless in skid row.
FUCK SCUM FUX
.. shit is scary.
life is getting blury
..
....... letting go gets easier by the second.
. forgot how in the start i even got in it.
..
.. forget what "i" was.
what "i" want..
the answer for both is nothing.
but the best thing i could do is end it with a positive note.:
"i love you"
..
.
slipping through the cracks
. let go of what i wanted the most.
.
.
.... now it is back,
my reflection is a ghost. Sun, May. 8th, 2005, 08:15 pm
oh, mother...
so devine is mother.
. she teaches me to best feel in the life i have been given.
created to create
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i love my mom. Sat, May. 7th, 2005, 10:55 pm
sometimes i think i'm happy here.
. how did it get started?
nothing will end.
... oh, it will be back again.
and again.
die , rebirth,
i hope Wed, May. 4th, 2005, 04:22 am
i battle my demon,./
.. but he always beats me.
i missed something important today.
.. and i watched it slip by.
now i panic,
as the boat sinks,
and the crash burns. Sun, May. 1st, 2005, 02:38 pm
wow.,,
.. i've been listening to the new NIN on Myspace.com!!!
it is the best yet! |
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